To follow up on my admittedly whiny “Current Struggle” post:
After some reflection (coinciding with a temporary dip in stress levels at work), I realize that this period of my being needed so intensely is fleeting. I realize that this period of my having to prove myself as I start out on my career is also temporary.
I have to communicate with others to get the time & space I need. And, even if it’s difficult in the moment, I have to not feel so bad for spending more time away from T when I need it.
And besides, the concept of “me” time is such a 1st world (even if not just a 1%-er) problem that I feel almost sheepish about worrying so much over it. Though I do think it’s true that I shouldn’t drive myself into the ground… That would be bad for me & my little family.
I’ve decided that I will work toward adding more physical activity into my day (stretching in my office, going for short lunch-time walks, starting to bike to work when the weather starts to warm up) but other than these little changes, I am determined to embrace this time in my life, challenging as it is, & to own my decisions & responsibilities.
I think that’s all I (or anyone) can do.